holidays:

trainings

jamming

performance

Hockey annual general meeting

Happy Birthday Logan

West Coast Dinner

I AM LEGEND

Scary Movies

and many other randoms

i've just been lazy to blog about it

next year ok ;)

the light & the darkness

and i stand in between

how one girl threw me into obscurity, devilish deep dark secrets

while another, like a lamp she spread light throughout

but now empty i stand without both

and so i have to choose

for the year's coming to a close and i stand guilty, indefinite, undecided.

temptations take form and seduce like never before

yet my eyes stay affixed on the light

maybe cos i still can't take my eyes of the girl with the lamp

i'm not going to proclaim your devotee no more

for i know that worthiness i have yet to reach

my humanliness takes over forgive me

one day i will forge paths with you i promise

untill then i offer my character to you

things that mantra and tantras cannot achieve

let my strength and resolute character acquire.

the year's coming to a close

and i live no regrets

yet i know the dream's not being lived

going pro when mister i ask?

the music's not there yet

but it will be cos i believe in miracles

why?

haha just watch and see =)

happy new year everyone!

ok so i just recieved a letter from ngee ann
2 actually, one's a reminder *ignored*
and the other's to congratulate my hockey teams silver position in Pol-Ites
theres loads of pictures i want to upload regarding the tournament
but i cant seem to get my hands on them
i only have these 2 pics
and some other randoms of my hockey peeps
so there.

this is pebble chan. i swear she was posing

the trio
the picture speaks for itself

my nature boy machan

this is my friend Ng Sin Ee

she's not shy she's just arrogant

that's my glasses she's wearing

she owes me something

this is to prove she's publicly my friend*ahem*

actually this is very random

dec 1st- my sisters and mom flew off to india
dec 7th- my dad's flying off to join them
dec 10th- my grannie and cousins are going off to malaysia
guess who's left behind?
and somehow im not celebrating
cos its getting kinda lonely
and its gona get more chilly soon
this sucks.

In my life

I don't mean much to anyone

I've lost my way can't go back anymore

Once I had everything now it's gone

Don't tell me again coz

I've heard it all before

Some people say that I'm not worth it

I've made mistakes but nobody's perfect

Guess I'll give it a try

I've got one last chance to get myself together

I can't lose no more time it's now or never and

I try to remember who I used to be

I've got one last chance to get myself together

The time has come for me to change again

I can't carry on like this, I will lose my friends - don't say that you have given up on me

Just give me the time and space to heal my head

I don't wanna be misunderstood

I've got to take this chance and make it into something good

I've got one last chance to get myself together

esplanade

finally i got my laptop fixed
seems brand new, all for free thanks to the warranty. lucky lucky
been a week since i posted something

and the weeks been topsy turvy

but like they say, the only constant is change

and here's a tribute to musicians that i admire and look up to

hats off to taalmenz and tribal taal for their show at esplanade under kala utsavam

it was a splendid show

not only the standard of music but also their showmanship

fusion at its best, simply orgasms
kya bath guys

friends
next to family, can mean alot to someone
well personally for me they do
thats why i give all, the best i can
the importance for simple reasons,
they are a reflection of yourselves
and for me, they're a priority

but then there's the some people
who take advantage, or take for granted
worst, they dont noe what they want and stay adamant to their ways
they say give and you will recieve
but at this point, it becomes more than that
life becomes a game and you gotta learn to play it

exodus
i despise australia
you guys are my pillars
so dont leave me rooted dudes
seriously, what am i gona do?

the laptop has crashed
gahhhhh

joy.excitement.love.adrenaline rush.laughter.happiness
take all these sweet emotions into a tube
then just a tint of poison u add in
stir and shake well
and look at how the concortion changes
in just over an hour
to total dismay.worry.anger.frustration.dissapointment.sadness
dont ask me how, it just happens
petty. hur
but its keeping me up the whole night that i know

happy birthday sin :)

this silence is deafening

if everyone in the world decided to stay mum and keep quiet

about how they feel, keeping tight about their emotions

gah. i rather my body cold and lifeless.dead than be in such a world

whether you realise, i don't know

for the things that you dont say

will hurt more than the things you say

expectations aside, i'm human too eh?

my will to give you thins out slowly

cos basically,

this silence is deafening

muse-ic

i'm dreaming of somethings now...

im going in search of you hanuman...

akhanda bhajans

Kumaran playing the naaal

mr. govindalu playing the flute

yet another of my gif creations, owing to my boredom. and my new phone of cos.

முழு நிலவெ மறைந்துவிதட்டாய்
ரசிக்க விடாமல் தவிக்க விட்டாய்
இரவுகள் தொரும் ஏங்குகிரேன்
பகலில் தானடி தூங்குகிரேன்...

the effect dreams have on you,
to make you shudder and wake up in cold sweat
not the typical ones with monsters chasing you
but the reality ones,
the ones with demons from your past never letting go.

the more i think of it the more it makes me sick
how you give love such a bad name
just cause your hormones go wild and crave for the unthinkable
you lower yourself to the state of an animal
how in the world did you think you could escape with all this
don't you know your karma will come finding you
and you will have to pay for all that you do?

my blood boils when i look around

and i see what i expected taking place

but im powerless to do or undo, to help you

clueless on what to do

my ego's screaming

but im pretending deaf now

only to see you happy

let the wounds open once again

and bleed all out

for the next stitches

will be stronger

நென்ஜே நென்ஜே நினைந்துவிடு
நிகழ்ந்ததை மறந்துவிடு

i'm looking for my deepavali

morning bhajans

afternoon visit by the hockey peeps

evening realisations

Mookam karoti vaachaalam

Pangum langhayatey girim

Yatkripaa tamaham vandey

Paramaananda Maadhavam

Rania Rania

Rania's Pre Deepavali Gathering at her house
and surprisiginly, for a place that SHE lives in
its quite neat and fashionable
bet she was no part of it la
her cookies.hmmm. ok la nice la
sharania's quite hospitable in fact
except for the part that violent godzilla pushed me down
and aggrevated my knee injury.

you shout you insult
you put down you find fault
yes yes yes
spin spin spin spin spin
out of control
jack of all trades, master of none
predicament

NP vs NYP

2 - 3

hmmm.gah

no comments im tired

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

nice right?

haha haniff's feminine poses

notes:

1) i love that balleilakka song

2) indrani d/o chills i do not look like teletubbies and yes u're a jealous ass.

gifs

haha a new hockey player in the making

i used these 2 monkeys to test out the new functions in my phone

and look what i created.

but the 1st prize goes to my edit of the dayyes ladies and gentlemani created a monster.

issues:
friends family tutorials music hockey love
environment that changes your character
im still conforming,
but to a point the changes become radical
then expectations come in
like a noose around your neck
every moment tightening its hold
shucks i'm bad at this
and everything will spin out of control
real soon.

indra and her kaama-fied sounds tsk tsk.

deeps is drawing near

and so the daunting task of cleaning my room i took upon

but it paid of quite well

cos i just added a new amplifier with 2 big speakers into my room

you can see 3 of the 6 here with the 2 amps that i have and my cracked laptop

perfect for jamming :D

this 2 are gay i tell you. seriously

they took so damn long to decide what they wanted to eat

all cos gerards super fussy. too spicy la. too hot la

training.training.training

i need to jam seriously, i'm itching

and i need to clarke quay soon

real soon.

vested interests
it was just a try. chinna gamble i took.
but after i get that faded black jeans
i'm going back to chillax ready.

kama-fied he said
come to think of it its true,
but such is the plight of girls these days
wadeva happened to bharathi kanda puthumai pen man?
honestly, i miss that innocent love

SP

NP vs SP
2 - 0
but i dont see the team i saw last thursday.
thank god we didnt pay the price for complacency
next up, NYP

the band needs a new keyboardist
any takers?

Hanif's Hair

the new signing for ngee ann hockey
the infamous haircut
the take advantage of the mirror thingy
the bitch i've missed

ahh yes the wednesdays

CMA kills i tell you, but no sweat la i'm not phased

*gulp*

9-4 sch

sharania's drop by at ngee ann

hockey team talk

hanif's haircut

dinner at al ameen

poor thing sia hanif his hair really sayang.

hahaha nvm dei ms june jealous, after IVP grow back your hair

and then you can show off ur hair to her

haha :P

here's a short video clip tribute to you

" When you fear, you'll never know your true potential"