akshara;
the imperishable, unchangeable and indestructible
the very word,letter, syllable
the pranava OM
the dettatreya trinity of brahma vishnu and shiva


so here's my thoughts amplified
this colloquy that i have with myself now here
the search for the things that remain constant in this life of changes, the things that are imperishable
yet cherishing the most simple things in life that may seem so unimportant and small but add beauty and colour,
to seek out the unfathomable, powers beyond our wildest dreams
the sanatana dharma to be upheld,
and the karma that we cannot run or hide from for it is the very equation we need to balance out
and hence the very reason of our existence
with a mic up my soul let the story unfold,
the past be forgotten and a new tale told.

यत्र यत्र रघुनाथ कीर्तनम् तत्र तत्र क्रित मस्तक अन्जलिं बष्पावरी परीपूर्ण लोचनम् मारुतिं नमश्च राक्षस अंतकम्।




Friday, February 29, 2008


AKASHIC RECORDS
Ok ok so the band's gone through yet another EXTREME MAKEOVER i would say
i'de like to once again welcome DON , SEELAN and MURALI for joining us.
We had our first official jamming on saturday 23rd Feb at anaki records chinatown
the place is awesome.
things are looking quite good. i'm not going to say much
lets just wait for things to unfold themselves eh.
but i must mention
1) murali's an awesome drummer
2) don's uncle wisdom always comes in handy
3) SEELAN'S CAR ROCKS!!!!!
see for urself la. AUDI CONVERTIBLE balls
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i think i'm stable enough now to do a decent post.
angsts aside.

So what's been happening.
SHARANIA LEFT FOR AUSTRALIAaaaaa
she'll be back in a months time though
i hope she gets me something nice haha

ATTACHMENT
sucks. Picture this.
8.30 - 6pm
NUS Enterprise centre
Job Scope: data entry (WTF)
Pay: $450 a month = $2/hr ( i get paid cheaper than a gigolo man)
Worst part is i'm ALL ALONE
no friends. and worse even if i want to mafe friends i can't cos there's just no one around
i'm just stuck to my desk doing data entry.
!@#$%^&

but on a happier note things have been going real good for the band
that shall be my next post :D

Monday, February 25, 2008

builld castles in your dream
and smash them when you're about to finish
thanks for waking me up

Sunday, February 24, 2008

hell begins tmr
attachment at NUS
8-6 weekdays till 12 April
and i ask where's my angel?
angels deserve to die
fucking hell they do
and i'de be cursed if my heart feels even the slightest for you
YES i'm a superficial bastard
YES from hence screw anything that doesn't make me feel good
YES i've inherited IRON MACHO lust
YES burn those who attempt closeness
your first line was enough to get me raving

FUCK the waiting
FUCK the opposites

im not saying there's no gd ones out there
there's a hand few
all im saying is that i'll wait for them to come and change my point of view
I DARE YOU

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
i'm trying my best here k
no really do you have to do this god?
you love poking at me right
its sadistic
wait till the end of time
or for a change of plan

Monday, February 18, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIKNESWARI!

Sunday, February 17, 2008


vikneswari d/o sukumaran
this is her confessions :)

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Thursday, February 14, 2008

left my wallet in the 157 bus
everything's gone. ic,studentcard,nets etc.
be an angel and return it to me
keep it and die a dog's death
your choice whoever you are.
yes i'm fucking pist
yes i'm fucking broken
yes the body's dying
fuck valentines

Monday, February 11, 2008

i try my best to forget and walk on
the hatred and poison helps at times
but tell me something
what do you do when memories like this haunt?
i'm not made of stone you know
nenjE nenjE marandhu vidu , ninaivinai kadandhu vidu
nenjE nenjE urangi vidu, nijangaLai thurandhu vidu
kaNgaLai vitruththan Oviyamaa
venneeril meengaL thoongumaa kaNNeeril kaadhal vaazhumaa

ah fcuk wadeva

Friday, February 8, 2008

NUS SPORTS SPECTRA
NGEE ANN TEAM A (kamikaze)
SILVER

so much of drama.
the wind was truly by our side
from protesting NYP's participation as they cheated
to scoring impossible goals
i hate the penalty shoot outs
but i must say i'm proud :D
cos out of 8 games we played, i kept a clean sheet
no goals went in, hats off to my defenders
in the end it came down to the finals
both teams from NGEE ANN met and the better man won
awesome shitz tho
but all came with a price
twisted the right hand and the nerves swollen double the size
im using my left to type infact
the pains a killa, keeps sending shocks down my bod
painkillas not helping either
oh fcuk the pain
how to study tell me?













pix in action


the ngee ann team A & B


video of the post celebrations
(there's a reason why we were shouting NUS haha)






Wednesday, February 6, 2008

i'm fucked for sure
i've already given up on my exams
hell's fury with heaven's way of doing it

its things like this that make it all worthwhile
things like this that make me smile
lets wait for exams to end
for the things planned out to begin
the jamming sessions, the late night chillz
the warrior to be training
OH SHIT
attachment begins 25th feb till 12 april at NUS
lets get back to studying
oh wait, i haven't started till now
and somehow i just don't give a fcuk.
the tall fire burns in the middle
a slow yet thumping beat begins accompanied by the continuous chants
of the thousands around who care less
but spike your anger, your trance
you begin to dance around the fire
whirling around first in control
but as the drums and chants get faster
you get transported to a different state of mind
a place where conscience is lost
your anger takes over and you focus nothing else
but on that raging sensation
the trance slowly makes your body react
and then begins the rite of passage blood gushes from the wounds of the heart
where each wound tells a tale
the sight of women pointing at and scorning you
you smear their blood all over your body
a sign of revenge to be taken
then your heart gets ripped out by bare hands
and gets thrown into the raging fire
before your very eyes every single emotion burns away
a drug then introduced into your body
it numbs the pain and gives you
a strength fueled by adrenaline
the ceremony is over but the war has just begun
vengeance is all that is left the vendetta all written out clearly
blood of the bitch smeared all over
you're handed a spear and a shield
both made of hard faith in god
the dark clouds pass on and the sun enters with radiance
smile
the next chapter begins shortly...

shushed my ego for you
waited till now for a reply
just a simple reply
but you've showed me how its going to be
and now i'm just pist off fcuk
thanks for nothing i guess
i scream for silence

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Medal

Another one for the showcase
NP Street Soccer Tournament
Miss3Turners
2nd Runner Up

Nearly dislocated my shoulder during training and its costing me
I cant move my shoulder. Cant gym cant play hockey
its a big question mark now cos i might be quitting SCC hockey soon
And i've sworn never to play goalkeeper anymore once Nus Spectra is over
Recover

Friday, February 1, 2008

YING THONGS IS A FAGGOT MOFO!