God..
I watch these girls that love their boyfriends
No matter how bastard the guys are
And how badly he treats her
She still loves him for who he is
And the years spent together
Makes it impossible to leave him

I watch these girls that fall in love with boys
Telling me how they miss their him
How he makes her go crazy
And how she just cant get enough
And even when it all seems impossible
How she doesn’t want to let go off him

I watch these best friends
Over a decade of friendship and more
Memories that they talk about over and over again
And no matter how much a jerk one can be
The other one understands

I watch all these from afar
Enjoying the beauty of love etched in every single moment
But I can’t help wondering where I went wrong
Actually. I can’t help wondering what’s your plans for me.

i took a step back to look at everything around
and i realised how everybody's having some kind of problem
looking for answers so much that they shun the world wanting to be alone
and in the process end up hurting the ones around

we're all hypocrit bastards
laughing at others for their "emo-ness"
but in the end we're guilty of the same shit
i'm not afraid of my weaknesses,
so take of that mask you're wearing and stand tall.

take it from me, no one's gona solve your issue
except you.
so rather than wallowing in self pity
why not search within
trust me you'll find the answer there.

i've lost another one.
things have happened over the few months
but i'm not phased
smiply cos i saw this coming
looking back at time, its more like a cycle in my life
no one has stayed too long, no one could ever come to close.
i've learnt to live my life alone, independent
it's not the best way to live
but fear and phobia will push you into it.
and this time my lips are sealed
i just don't see the point of telling people my problems and worries anymore


but i've rectified one thing,
i'm never gona go out of my way to help someone i like
its just not worth it.
and take it from me, if you're waiting to be understood.
its never gona happen

thank you for the good times,
you were a good friend.

Baracuda Batucada Photo Shoot

Ive told you this once before you cant control me

If you try to take me down youre gonna break

I feel your head crack and it's nothing that you're doing for me

Im thinkin you're a fake, you are that way

Youre always hiding behind your so called goddess
So what, you dont think that we can see your face?
Resurrecting back before the final fallen
Ill never rest until I can make my own way
Im not afraid of fading

Feeling your sting down inside me
Im not tired forever
Everything that I believe is fading

Now its my time
Its my time to dream
Dream of the sky
Make me believe that this place isnt made by the poison in me
Help me decide if my fire will burn out before you can breathe
Breathe into me

I stand alone

seven sins

LUST
porn penn porn penn porn penn porn penn porn penn
Desires temptation the devil within
the downfall of society
Hocus Pocus FOCUS

home

Shine-lake of fire
Lines take me higher
My mind drips desire
Confined and overtired
Living this charade
Is getting me nowhere
I can`t shake this charade
The city`s cold blood calls me home
Home it`s what I long for
Back home where I belong
The city - it calls to me
Decadent scenes from my memory
Sorrow - eternity
My demons are coming to drown me
Help - I`m falling, I`m crawling
I can`t keep away from its clutch
Can`t have it, this habit
It`s calling me back to my home

I remember the first time she came to me
Poured her soul out all night and cried
I remember I was told there`s a new love that`s born
For each one that has died
I never thought that I
Could carry on with this life
But I can`t resist myself
No matter how hard I try
Living their other life
Is getting them nowhere
I`ll make her my wife
Her sweet temptations calls me home
Home it`s what I long for
My home where she belongs
Her ecstasy - means so much to me
Even deceiving my own blood
Victoria watches and thoughtfully smiles
She`s taking me to my home
Help - he`s my brother, but I love her
I can`t keep away from her touch
Deception, dishonorIt`s calling me back to my home

Her story - it holds the key
Unlocking dreams from my memory
Solving this mystery
Is everything that is a part of me
Help - regression, obsession
I can`t keep away from her touch
Leave no doubt, to find outIt`s calling me back to my home

Happiness the tangent curve
There’s always a point in your life where you’ll hit rock bottom
Currently I just dug beneath rock bottom and buried myself
I’ve never experienced such a low.
To make things worse, it’s not an event but rather a period
All these fingers pointing at me
Claiming that I’ve changed, every so ready to judge me
Bitch you were never there by my side
So don’t fucking run your mouth aite?
All this pressure’s choking me
The weight on my shoulders making me buckle.
Or so you expect.

Disciplined Rudiments
Abs and Guns
North indian + Rock vocals

Kill the boy
Sundar Kaantham
Akshara Concepts
Pengal Silanthigal
Language
Spongebob the observer

Image

Baracudas

NIE

I’m not who I used to be.
If you think your life’s fucked up think again
I’m not taking anymore excuses, not giving any either

And If you didn’t care, I’m not going to either
Life ain’t roses and rainbows my friends
Its uglier than you think.
And if any of you assholes think you can make it worse for me
Watch your back cos I’ll be coming for you.
Less said more done
Thiru’s changed. Deal with it.
Success is my only motherfucking option failure’s not.

Ujale Bazz - AGNEE

"I have fallen in love with the dreams of the fiery one

I was bound in a cage and now I am ready to fly
Oh Mother.. I made friends of a falcon

Such a flight he flew, that he never came back
Flying here, flying there, we exhausted our wings

We were arrested and fell in love with imprisonment
I have fallen in love with the dreams of the fiery one
Says Firdaus if there were a paradise on earth this is it..this is it"

One of the few and rare indian hard rock songs
Awesome music video

i love the batik details given to the phoenix
More importantly the strong message behind the song
superb.

i really need to stop bobbing my head...

AEROCRATZ dhool 2008

I've never attended a mediacorp show live before. Top that i never attended a big dance competition either, for the fact that i am not a fan of the local indian dance scene.
So what made me go and watch Dhool 2008 live? Its this group. AEROCRATZ.
Yes i maybe a bit biased cos i have friends dancing from the group. Yet i know that if you watch the clips below you too will have your views changed.

What i like. Their commitment and passion. Their drive to be different and unique. Their readiness to sacrifice and their pool of fans, family and members supporting them.
Common indians just like you and me they're not perfect, they too hone the typical habits of indians. Yet i say they stand as role models to the indian society.

For their quarterfinals they did the instrumental version of THUMBE VA by ilaiyaraja. A piece in the raagam kaapi. Their theme was inspired by the ugly duckling. They were able to present the song with such feelings and the message came strong and clear. A really good attempt at contemporary dance.

As for the semifinals they did the popular 80's song tholvi. Nobody would have guessed that you could dance to such a slow piece but yet again they proved us all wrong. I infact had my doubts but in the end i was moved to tears by their performance. They were in the song and they were able to bring the audience into the song too. Truly commendable.

As a whole the dhool show's pretty good. Kalaiselvan's effort at bringing the youth indian society is commendable BUT there are these few uncouth indians that are too shallow to realise this.
An indians strongest and weakest point is his mouth. For that fact i commend VADI, not only for his excellent hosting but also for being to tell these people in their face that they should shut their gap.

From the bottom of my heart i wish AEROCRATZ all the best for your finals. rock on =)

a revolution awaits...

semi finals

quarter finals

kanavugalil vazhnthuvittaen iruthivarai,

intha sogam indru sugamaanathu

oru varamaaga ni thanthathu.

oaoraru kayangal yen vazhkai paadama?

ini theeyai vaithu yeritthalum yen nenjam veezhuma?

too many. just too many

enough of this emotional rollercoaster.

and though they ridicule he has a point

not ready for a serious relationship, just go with the flow

but rather i'de like to spend some time on myself

improving myself

disciplined rudimentary excercises.

DISCIPLINED RUDIMENTARY EXERCISE 1

"The Last Goodbye"

I don't believe you

And I never will

Oh I can't live by your side

With the lies you've tried to instill

I can't take anymore

I dont have to give you a reason

For leaving this time

Coz this is my last goodbye

It's like I hardly know you

But maybe I never did

It's like every emotion you showed me

You kept well hid

And every true word that you ever spoke

Was really deceiving

Now I'm leaving this time

Coz this is my last goodbye

I've gotta turn and walk away

I don't have anything left to say

I haven't already said before

I've grown tired of being used

And I'm sick and tired of being accused

Now I'm walking away from you

And I'm not coming back

weird
no really weird
she had to prove her words, dont bet with a saggie
i've never had someone been this sweet to me.
you know who you are and you're truly appreciated
life has taught me alot,
never to judge a lesson in time i've been educated about.
and you have been full of surprises ever since day 1.
i say when you give without expecting
you will recieve tenfolds
a blessed future with joy and laughter to you =)

an evening at BLU JAZ CAFE

with the baracudas (jiv justin joanne ian faz larris)

and of course who else but sharania

went to watch LILA DRUMS perform live there

it was an african percussion ensemble

i'de like to call it djembe sex, sweet.

its totally inspired me to a whole new level

how an instrument can truly be spiritual

and how the djembe really should be played

a night of african rhythms i will not forget

and oh yea happy birthday justin bitch.

sudha ragunathan

tomorrow's vinayakar chaturthi

and there i was the eve of it at senpaga vinayagar temple

watching south indian classical music's best perform live

SUDHA RAGUNATHAN

such a treat and i have sai vignesh anna to thank for it

like he said, a mix of popular hits

raagam names flying everywhere

i learnt alot that day

and i heard my fav songs, kurai onrum illai and bo shambo

i maybe quiet, but thats cos i want to be like the sponge

absorbing everthing around me and not letting a single word out.

that doesnt mean i don't know

it just means i choose not to say.