ready to take that fall, a plunge so deep

cos at this moment I'M HAPPY

sakhyam

to be blessed with a true friend

is a boon presented to a penance of many births

a qualification not many can justify to

thus the reason why it's such a rare gem

let perfection be in the eye of the beholder

for the many watching eyes look on

peering through the cracks in your soul

digging into the weaknesses of your character

waiting for a chance to take you down

in hopes of hiding their own faults

to make them feel stronger

so let it be

hug me tight a warmth in love

take a knife and put it against my skin 

the cold blade sending a warning chill

then you start to hack away

only to leave me naked, cold and in gore

yet me eyes will look at you only in compassion

such was the character

but if you keep polishing a stone

pushing its edge for perfection

no sooner will it disintegrate right infront of your face

and then will you regret your actions and miss its presence

so this is the scene

but in the end the one true friend

who has always been there for you

who will be able to judge you in all truth

will be yourself

create a universe within yourself

and then you can take this whole earth 

within your palm making it a part of you

there's so much more to life

so much that truly matters and counts

i'm moving forward

saying goodbye has become a habitual skill for me

and here's one for you :)

but i ain't givin up

indignation

amidst the "go-with-the-flow" sheep

one stands firm against conformity

it takes much valor to stand up for what you believe in

just cos' others do it, does not make it right

something that i constantly remind myself about

is the fact that when you're prepared to do the right thing

you have to be prepared to do it alone too

i've spent the past 2 years pinning hopes and beliefs on others

good friends i would say

and their failure to deliver took a toll on me

which made me realize that humans are selfish creatures

always weighing their ulterior motives

and my god indians are lazy people who love to talk and not do work

plus recent switches in values of people around me

has induced a venomous disgust in me for them

so like weeds in a padi field i've decided to pluck them out

yea I'm cold and hard 

but i believe in god's purpose of existence for everyone one of us

and I'm blessed with a friend, heart of gold

there must be a reason why things happened this way

there must be a reason why i feel this way

21 years of falling down and relentlessly picking myself up

will not go to waste

the question right now is

ARE YOU GOING TO FINISH STRONG?

i would like to apologize to those who actually read my blog

i know lately it's been excessively emotional

but NO it does not mean that i'm going through a phase

it's actually me being lazy

i've been using the blog as a channel to vent the negative emotions

not a good idea i realized

other than that i've been too much of a sloth to update on the happenings

or share a view or 2

which i promise i will pretty soon 

at this very moment i'm good

its almost a year since i started taking percussion seriously 

latin afro and indian

it's been good and i've gone places, god's will

but it's time to take it to the next level

let's just see how it works out

but for this year it's alot of observing and learning

gandharva plan

 

you asked me whether i used you

but i keep wondering if its the other way round

at the moment i'm sorting out the mess

my tolerance and give-a-shit level is at its lowest 

ask my friend, she'll tell you

but somehow my dads always been giving valuable advice at the right time

and ragu's presence is invaluable

this weeks plan: voodoo and my room

Skin head, dead head

Everybody gone bad

Situation, aggravation

Everybody allegation

In the suite, on the news

Everybody dog food

Bang bang, shot dead

Everybody's gone mad

Beat me, hate me

You can never break me

Will me, thrill me

You can never kill me

Jew me, sue me

Everybody do me

Kick me, kike me

Don't you black or white me

All I wanna say is that

They don't really care about us