performed for don's friend's band, DANNY REJOICE it was really a pleasure working with the 8 piece band
what grabbed me was the fact that they were willing to do anything for music
and they had the backing of family and friends
a rare thing in the indian community
they spent 2k just on the show itself and the shocking truth
it was just a 2 hr segment of a tamil camp in newtown sec
just to show the kids what music really is about
kudos to prathap and dinesh
i sang what i would call "neruppu songs"
hey aatha, aasai nooru vagai,kodampakkam area.
lol really not me but i actually had a gd time
and i learnt a lesson in entertainment.
oh and the last picture was when i danced with one of the auntys on the dance floor
cos i was approached by the students to dance but i din want to.
that reminds me. the warmth of the aunties hai hai.
truly music and love.

question:
are you living the LIFE?
or
are you living the LIE?
the difference lies in a single alphabet
yet the difference holds great magnitude

i don't want to live a lie
so i'm gona sit down and analyse
gather some will from god knows where
and fix this shit.

your repititions of how nothing will last forever
and so would this
has finally etched itself into my mind.

thiru's MIA for the moment
he's gone in search of his dreams.

i'm supposed to be studying but at the moment there's so much going through my head.
I sincerely thank god for helping me through my FIT paper and the friends who cared and wished.theres actually a HELL alot of things that have happened in the past few months that i have not updated about. i will after my exams k.

im losing my fitness touch and i dont like that. on the other hand i freaking despise running. how like that? that plus my freaking low metabolism rate. and exam stress makes you eat like no tomorrow i swear.

over time i have met so many musicians. many have inspired me and many have disgusted with equal magnitude. i honestly cant imagine a life without music and i dont mean this in your typical "oh musics life, i miss music, music is soul" bull crap. over time i've learnt how music basically sums up in two words. Discipline and passion. If god gave you the gift of being musically inclined and you're not doing anything about it, honestly shame on you.
Im running around chasing my music dreams. There was this time in my life when i was so crazy about it i used to blabber "drums,guitar,djembe.sing sing" when i was sleeping.
But god loves to test i guess. I want to state here for all my friends. Music and friendship are 2 different things. Yes they might overlap but they are individual entities. Friendship can make your music lazy and from experience i say this. My whole band became lazy and its depressed me so much. It actually shattered my world. Yet i know my ethics. I still hold on to these friends in hope one day things will work out.
I have to stop worrying about others and concentrate on myself for now.
DJEMBE AND HINDUSTANI VOCALS.

for once in my life i took the chance of being superficial. why in the world do we things that will hurt us unknowingly? i still dont get it. How can someone be so emotionally shallow. You're just another lesson learnt girl.

the world arounds quite shattered and everythings a mess.
i'm trying to pick up the pieces and put them back together.
Before you can love someone else
You need to learn to love yourself
and for that you need to accept yourself for who you are.
At the moment im learning and learning.
i admire the phoenix, trialed by fire only to be reborn.

cardinal avenue

this is cardinal avenue

an amazing rock band in singapore

thats been making big in the local rock scene

from really humble beginings

john on drums

faris on lead guitar

prahlad on vocals and rhythms

and this french chinese guy called brice who plays bass

and happens to be a best friend of mine

from being real tight as friends

now their musics really getting tight too

their sounds matured so much

its a real inspiration to see this guys

plus its really my kind of fused rock

a bit of maths a bit of new age a bit of punk and really heavy beats

Cardinal Avenue will be playing live at Scape this saturday

They're the headliners

and also catch them at Baybeats

and go listen to them at http://www.myspace.com/cardinalavenue

awesomeness.

he stands tall, his guru watching over him
and when i took this picture i could only ask
that he too would watch over me.
and now i pray...

that I will complete my diploma properly

and that I will enter NTU-NIE

to become the teacher i've always wanted to be

that I will be strong when it comes to her

i've come to realise how self obsessed she is

looks count for shit my dear

so i pray you do have a good side to you

or else this ends here.

that I find a job now to support myself

and to pay for my education

that i stay focused

i cannot afford to to be distracted

i've only got one shot at this

and finally i thank you for a friend like sharania

Watch the sunrise

Say your goodbyes

Off we go

Some conversation

No contemplation

Hit the road

Car overheats

Jump out of my seat

On the side of the highway baby

Our road is long

Your hold is strong

Please don’t ever let go oh no

I know I don’t know you

But I want you so bad

Everyone has a secret

But can they keep it

Oh no they can’t'

is it wrong to be born with good looks
but not be equipped with the ability to flirt?
is it wrong to refuse a pack of cigs and a beer
and drink coke and eat a pack of kinder bueno when you're stressed?
is it wrong to be able to do almost everything
and yet be humble about it?
is it wrong to be better than others
but yet treat them with respect?
is it wrong to have a strong conscience
and feel sensitive towards every damn thing?
is it wrong to be born indian
and to have to put up with the narrow-minded chinese?
is it wrong to love without expecting anything in return
but to get stabbed back in return?
is it wrong to lead
but end up having a bunch of lazy retards to follow you?
is it wrong to have a conversation with your mom about her life
and end up feeling lonelier than ever?
is it wrong to like a girl
just for her looks?

is it wrong being me?

you tell me...

love.

you cannot define pain
its not something that you can hold in your hands and show to someone
yet i know something that can give you an experience
to enjoy pain in its most fullest form
that something will take place
when you lose the one that you love.

an electrical surge that overcomes your body

it will bring you to your knees
like a broken dam, the tears flow
your breathing becomes heavy
your eyes red
your heads swirling in a rhythmic pattern
you think you're going mad and you're going to faint
but god doesnt grant you that gift
instead you will consciously suffer every second of the turmoil
every memory will set off a time bomb
with hurt gripping your heart in a sleeper hold
in that moment all you can do is muster some energy to look up
and let go a whisper
"help me..."

i write this not to emo but rather to educate myself.
for more than a year i experienced this psychotic phase
alone at night in my room locked up so that no one hears me.
but what made me remember all this

was this small framed picture of lord shiva i have
that i used to talk to like a mad man.
i used to hug it tight and go to sleep to remedy the loneliness and fear.
and one day finally upon that picture i swore my five year abstinence from a relationship

many of my peers never fail to remind that i'm a flirt, a slut
i don't deny. i've had too many dates. just too many
people say i fall in love too fast, i'm fickle minded
but the truth lies in here
she was the only one, the rest were just my frantic struggles to seal that void
the need to be loved.

so thiru why are you telling us all this?
havent we heard enough?

who's telling you?
i'm talking to myself.
and there's a difference cos i know my mistakes
but i'm having a tough time rectifying it.
i want to stick to my promise and the fear of that pain reminds me
but at times i go astray in search of warmth and comfort in love
the deal is to stay focused thiru.
at the moment you're too distracted thiru. too many too many
but i don't blame you la, she's hot =)
and she's your other half
but EH no ah thiru.

i have too many dreams and too much of desire to attain them
and i will just watch me.

if you read this post and you just don't get anything
clearly you have never experienced true love
and the painful joy of it leaving you.
the fact that you think of someone constantly
and that someone out there thinks about you too
thats the beauty of it all.
when you love something too much
let it go, set it free
and if it does come back to you then thats true love there.

i want to thank you chu
for those magical years
and for the gift of love,
cos i stand here the man i am now thanks to all this
and i view the world so very differently
cos of that crazy thing called love.

the beauty of the stay over

lied in the fact that it did not feel wrong

and i did not feel guilty

that made the whole thing just very right

i love

the sights and sounds

the fashion statements

the music the night life

the people the scene

more of this please.

solemates

as corny as it sounded coming from your mouth

i'm seeing those words take form in my heart

i don't regret the things that are happening in my life

cos its somehow brought me closer to you

brother.twin.friend.guyfriend.bestie.

whatever it maybe

i want you to know that i cherish you

the future i do not know what it holds

but for the moment lets just enjoy what we have

love =)

" The world is yours ,

but you don't seem to care "

HAPPY
BIRTHDAY
SHIVA!

There's another world inside of me

That you may never see

There're secrets in this life

That I can't hide

Somewhere in this darkness

There's a light that

I can't find

Maybe it's too far away...

Or maybe I'm just blind...

So hold me when I'm here

Right me when I'm wrong

Hold me when I'm scared

And love me when I'm gone

Everything I am

And everything in me

Wants to be the one

You wanted me to be

I'll never let you down

Even if I could

I'd give up everything

If only for your good

So hold me when I'm here

Right me when I'm wrong

You can hold me when I'm scared

You won't always be there

So love me when I'm gone

Roaming through this darkness

I'm alive but I'm alone

Part of me is fighting this

But part of me is gone

i took every single of you
and placed each one in a single cell of my heart
i was prepared to do anything for you'll

so here i go

i dissapear

for most of you just don't care

and your bad move will make things tear

you're a pretty dumb hoe

watch me now as i go

and now you don't.

cos you will live to regret.

shhhhhhhhh
silence

focus

tension.attention please. give me give me.
i don't know what im trying to say
girls girls glamorous girls. nail that bitch
why are you so in your own world? there are others around
bad move my friend
sharania what you said might just come true, blame yourself for talking about it
you you you.FUCK YOU =)
hockey hockey where do we go from here?
oh death metal oh so soothing.
i need help.
no seriously.

Happy Birthday Sharania

Earth to Bella

You think you’ve got it all figured in

Earth to Bella

Everything you know is wrong (well almost)

Earth to Bella

I see where you are not listening

I bear the burden of being the voice that let's you know

We all grow old

And before you swim you've gotta be okay to sink

Earth to Bella

The world can be an unfriendly place

So hold your head up

And do your best to save some face

It’s not so hard

Just undo yourself and see a second sun ascend

it's okay to sink...

i'm writing this for a person

who i've had the most fall-outs with in the shortest period

who has accused me of blogging about her b4 when i didn't

and now i'm doing it, so i hope you realise

as fast as things come, things will go

and i know your tiny pause will be forever

doesn't matter anyway cos you have too much ego

i write this with a reason

like you always say maturity is not a number

yet we all are tied by nature's law

everything has a balance

everything has a time for it to happen

I despise geeks

but i realised that they too have their place in this world

during a meeting i realised the depth of it

how we might not be able to exist without them and their knowledge

so why question the lifestyle of others?

we were all brought down here for a reason

and each reason is special and different respective to each individual

whether or not they find their true calling is up to them

my dad always told me not to resist nature but rather

to live in harmony with it

i respect and admire your passion for self improvement

yet i see hatred fear anger and dissaproval

the key for improvement is love

and i don't mean selective love

" Ok guys stand in a row, you the poser you're out.
ah yes you're my soul mate yes you're in"

nope does'nt work that way. love is unconditional

screw the past and live the future.

i'm not saying this cos i care

im saying it cos i want to.

a moment in time

when you wave a finger across the crowd

to let the mass know what you're thinking

I KNOW I KNOW

why so angsty thiru why?

truth is that i've been having some really bipolar moments

must be mixing with sharania too much i guess =)

so when im UBER ANGSTY i let it all out here

but when im sky high im out enjoying so i don't bother telling

but i've realised i need to change my style of blogging. now

i've been wacking out my issues all at a shot

i need to sit and analyse each, one by one

and i've realised how anoynimity can irritate the shit out of people

i'm gona be more direct in that sense from now

hmm lets see where shall i start?