asai mugam maranthu poche

ithai yaaridam solvenadi thozhi

nesamum marakkavillai nenjam 

yenil ninaivu mugam marakkalamo

asai mugam maranthu poche

ithai yaaridam solvenadi thozhi?

these things have happened too fast

in a blur yet so real but only cos i know this feeling

i've felt it before

now then never i need time

sudden reaction of mixed emotions has left a void

the implications of your decisions

honestly, it may never be the same

but i think that doesn't matter

cos that's what this is all about 

there's alot inside me now but

ithai yaaridam solvenadi thozhi?

MAHA SHIVA RATHIRI

tomorrow's exam

so i'll be home

but the prayer's the same as every year

shivoham

epiphany;

you remind me of her

and that's the only reason why

a bit late eh?

ok so here's the deal;

i'm super disappointed in you brother

cos i took you as a role model

it just goes to show a few things

never put someone up on a pedestal

and never lie to yourself

which brings me to the point about being who you are

if you're a flirtatious bitch be one

don't proclaim innocence tainted by society

it's quite sickening to actually believe in someone's purity

only to be made look like a fool

sexcapades

it's become such a common thing

honestly is it that hard to be faithful?

is it that hard to keep your virginity intact

this isn't random, i just hear too many stories

people choose to give their bodies first rather than their hearts

sorry but i just can't digest that

i'm wondering when i turn 25 how many virgin girls are gona be left man

seriously

its okay

its alright

so what's new? 

dysphoria =)

i really hate exam periods

sucks the life out me

kept it in for the past few months

but its all gone now

akshara under construction

at this very moment

i'm very worn out by everything that has happened

i've silently watched as others paraded

about themselves and about others

how great they are, or think they are

been in the middle of triangles

but in all i've stayed a silent observer

i've assessed and picked out what i need

yet every time i try to instill

i somehow fail or get distracted

worse is the feeling of being stabbed by ungrateful people

frankly i'm tired

it would be nice to have someone to knock some sense into me

or a few reassuring words would do

but no time for that

the concoction should be ready soon

no sugar no spice

just every single damn thing i've seen and experienced

but somehow i just cant get it all together

horoscope

Attractive personality.sexy. 

Affectionate.Shy and reserved. 

Secretive. 

Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.

Loves peace and serenity. 

Sensitive to others. 

Loves to serve others.

Easily angered. Trustworthy. 

Appreciative and returns kindness. 

Observant and assesses others. 

Revengeful. 

Loves to dream and fantasize. 

Loves traveling.

Loves attention. 

Hasty decisions in choosing partners. 

Loves home decors. Musically talented.

Loves special things. 

Moody.

omfg its bloody hot

god help

i really need a guru

a guidance a role model a mentor

someone

silence focus

omg wtf a wet one

the advent of sandhya

"Shaaman paiyan tere bina tu gher aa sohniya..."

As the evening brings on the darkness of the night, the bright days are over. Dysphoria settles around everywhere without you and i request my beloved you come back home soon. For it is in this cross road that melancholy prances around as i await the advent of sandhya.

p.s;

sandhya in sansrit means evening

blame simple coincidence

words twisted to look like flowers bestowed yet with dark motives

are no less equal to a cheap pick up line

my words metamorphosed into poems by your will shall be meant for you

i don't see any greater glory than that

for none whom is deserving i have come across

and now that i look back i realise

my cause noble and will strong

for in kindness and love as soft as a flower

yet in principles as loud as thunder shall it be

i have no reason to bow down and surrender to fate

this is what i mean by i had enough

mother

Uyirum neeye udalum neeye thaaye

Thann udalil sumandhu Uyirai pagirndhu Uruvam tharuvaai neeye

Un kannil vazhiyum oru thuli pothum kadalum muzhugum thaaye

Un kaaladi mattum tharuvai thaaye Sorgam yenbathu Poiyye

Pennai Padaithan Mannai Padaithan Katrum Oliyum Mazhaiyum Padaithaan

Boomikku athanal nimmathi illai

Saami Thavitthan Thaayai Padaithan

translate;

The very life, the very form, the very relationship that is you Mother

You took care of me in your womb sharing your life and soul 

so that i could attain this form

A drop of tear from your is enough to make the ocean overflow

Your lotus feet are enough to make me believe that heaven is a myth

God created MAN and the 5 elements

Because of which there was no peace on Earth and God suffered

thus he created MOTHER

a mother's love

cannot be matched by anything in this entire universe

this is what my heart yearns for

what my soul burns for

the reason for me to begin this journey

and the destination that this journey awaits to reach

the unconditional love that pulls me towards it

that seems so near yet so intangible

the only thing that god forgot to endow me with

why?

Uyirum Neeye - AR Rahman feat shaman

rose on the grave

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea

You became the light on the dark side of me

Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill

But did you know that when it snows

My eyes become larger and the light that you shine can be seen

There is so much a man can tell you

So much he can say

You remain

My power my pleasure my pain

To me you're like a growing addiction that i can't deny

Won't you tell me is that healthy baby?

I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grave

The more i get of you the stranger it feels yeah

And now that your rose is in bloom

A light hits the gloom on the grave.

That that feels so wrong, feels so right too

that i need to get pricked by thorns

just to reach the rose i do realize

The faster the heart beats the more the head thinks

maybe at the wrong time too

moments of cruciality drugged by your presence

I could give you the world i know if i wanted to

but would that mean destroying a part of me

like how it always has been

the 3 spokes of the devils pitch fork

become the thorns that separate this union

I have patience i shall wait for time to unravel the truth

till then you shall remain a rose on the grave