ECD

consequences of falling sick:

no gymming

no hockey

no tabla

no singing

missed classes

missed TEST

been a boring week. but i just got my ECD Bazaar pictures from brice.

ECD Bazaar

the "Chindian" stall

selling indian finger food and SUPPOSE to be chinese stickers

oh ya and of course HENNA thanks to my darling sharania ( i owe u)

The owners: yong lian, brice , spencer, thiru

It started out very rocky, but in the end we managed to break even and even earn some profit ($2.50 each). hahaha but it was actually thanks to the henna. YES WE ADMIT RANIA. :P

the stall
me. yong lian. emo panda
indian.chinese.and a cross breed brice's photostyles

sharania's art works

test me, not kill me.
a late morning dream, of something that felt so real
so real it reduced me to tears
so real it shattered what's left of me
when my eyes opened to reality.
and the truths i've burried deep down in me
managed to claw right back up
they've got a tight hold on my neck and heart
and once in awhile they give me a real good squeeze
killing me slowly but surely
either i let them kill me, or i liberate these truths of mine
only to destroy what we have now

point of breakdown

point of breakdown

PHYSICALLY, that is

cos i've been fighting it off the whole week

but yesterday my systems crashed

and thus resulting in the infamous

FLU FEVER SORETHROAT COUGH BODYACHE

but like that's gona stop me. tsk.

I've learnt 3 important lessons

Never push your own limits for someone else

Because they will presume thats your comfort zone

It all started with a punkass trying to scold me on the feild

And rather than the usual " ok ok np"

it came out as "@#$% just play ur game man"

So there. Some people really dont deserve ur kindness

SO JUST GIVE IT TO THEM i say.

The bus driver who asked to see my ez link card

in such a rude fashion

1) i was listening to bhajans 2) i was sick

i should have put him in his place,

but the 2 reasons stopped me.

which comes down to the next point

practicality over superficialness

this to all preachers who dont practice

sssssshhhhh k :)

I've decided to look at life in a very practical way.

A bit of rebel is good. To fight for what you believe in

and not for what others tell you to.

And the last,

controling the EYES and TONGUE

looking down while i walk,

and choosing not to let words out

has helped me SO much.

And so i realised,

all this kept within me sparked a controlled rage inside

but i spit it all out now, and now i burn like the sun

but i have to be careful, i nearly burnt the innocent

for you, 1 2 3 4 5 just so much

i can't anymore

prove to me

SCC vs CSC
6 - 0

And so we're through to the semi finals
Which is next saturday.
Prob is there's src 4 -a- side on the same day.
Choice?

And then off to EHV at the temple.
The team wore GREEN cos its EARTH DAY
We had a fruitful meeting,
one without the usual distractions.
But alot of complications have arised.
While the core 3 stick together,
the others are faltering.

But have faith,
cos if the end journey on every one's mind
is synchronised as one
Then sooner or later,
things will fall into place :)

SRC 4-A side that got canceled and postponed to the following week
All thanks to the rain -.-
And so i left for my WYC Conference meeting
followed by bhajans,

Rasa Vilola Nandalala
Radha Madhava Nandalala
Nandha Kishora Nandalala
Navaneetha Chora Nandalala

i'm gona have to train harder the next time.

And the night wrapped up with soccer

with our seniors

its been awhile since i played upfeild

AYE Street Soccer Court

faster recover la shiva!

Happy Birthday Oh Gerard is gay William!

anjana karpa sambootham

kumaram bramacharinam

dustagraha vinashaya

hanumanthaya upasmaye

.om shri hanumate namah.

GYM
SCC TRAINING
NP TRAINING
PROJECTS
ASSIGNMENTS
TABLA
VOCALS
SADHANA

bhajans, hockey matches, exams, src 4 a side, EHV classes coming up soon
so all seems swell doesnt it?
it is actually.
but then.
i get so easily torn up inside
due to insecur...SShhhh
nope.
i don't die so fast.
i have a habit of coming RIGHT back at you.
out of tune, yeap but take a spanner and tighten those nuts and bolts of mine
and everything's just gona be swell
hell yeah :D

i'm sorry
i din mean for this to happen
but circumstances tend to force decisions upon us
decisions we regret, but cant help to make.

Where did I go wrong,

I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

you were an angel to me

and im glad we met

its best this way i agree

and i wish all the best for you

and just remember to listen to your heart

:)

i see the improvements
and im happy with myself
although i'm a bit disillusioned now
i'm sure he'll answer me
sooner, or later.
so lets keep it going eh.

i'm thinking of you

start

the start of a new week
plans made and ready to go
blast off!

you there! yes you.
stop pointing fingers around
and wake up
yes i have my limits too
dont push em :)
so stop living in your fantasy world
and let reality hit you.
b4 i'm gone =)

pantomime

In my fantasy
I'm a pantomime
I'll just move my hands and everyone sees what I mean

Words are too messy

And it's way past time

To end in my mouth

You're my deep secret

I'm your pantomime

I'll just move my hands

I promise you'll see what I mean...

ssshh silence

dont say anything no more

for actions simply speak louder

or i just simply choose to keep it within myself

cos as the world around me shrinks,

its actually expanding by folds

its just been UP and DOWN lately

but then i realised

we say more when we say nothing at all

its all working out fine now

and i can only thank u god

so lets keep this up eh

bringing silence to focus.

i cant anymore
just too dead
im sorry
come out tears, flow down
stop being so stubborn.

sadhana 1

so i side tracked today
not good.
but thanks pebs =)
i really needed that.
love you too. <3

Its a world filled with lust,greed and desire

and im battling my way out

times when girls these days make it so hard

and i lose control

so its down to this

the ability to control my mind

with the given methods to me

i shall acquire the skill

and hit that 21 day mark

ready.set.go

school

gym

hockey

tabla and vocals

its been a routine these few days

my body's tired, so's my mind.
falling sick. the body's falling apart
im trying not to let things affect me
trying to focus on the main thing.
but im losing it.
and i so just want to keep silent. in my own world.
its times like these i wish
for that something special. anything
to put that smile across my face, and keep me going.
but i cant complain. i cant stop to think.
gota keep moving u see, cos times running out.

these constant dreams about you

every single night ever since,

they're affecting me badly.

they're stirring up desires within me.

but every night b4 i sleep

and every morning when i wake up

my prayers are said

to keep me focused

at this point i dont want anything

other than what he wills for me.

dream

as i fell asleep, a dream came to tempt me

but when my eyes opened, and i realised it was just a dream

it killed me. so very badly.

dissapointments

:'(

i just want you to know that i love you.

but no time to emo.
i've got shit loads to do.
the constant emo line will be constantly covered up.
Cos the next one month's gona be a storm
"The main thing is to keep the main thing the main thing"
Stay focused thiru.

Freshmans

Ngee Ann Hockey Club

Freshmans Camp

21st - 24th June

I say awesome!
Plus minus the minute details
What can beat spending 4 days and 3 nights with my kya bath gang
And the 3 powerpuffs. Haha those guys have potential and i really look forward to working with them.
The indoor and the outdoor games.
The bhangras. wack i tell you
Sat night made me realise so much.
I'm proud to be where i am now. In this school. in this team
The brotherhood.
The guys are all pumped up.
ready to go with our eyes fixed on the goal.
And like hanif and I promised
" A year to remember"...

ZooHoo!

Crikey! What a day.

Tiring. But yet so refreshing to the dead body.mind.soul.

And i can only thank god. For it was just so perfect.

And not for a moment did the mind wander.

awesome :D

i love you guyz :)

The groupshots;

that sexy elephant next to sharania
sai,jj,rek
she simply adores meshiva.uma

The guyz

Kumz.sharania

The 3

The me's.

And yes, we found some WEIRD things in the zoo.

Butterfly man
I swear i din noe which was the nose
Smth that reminded me of Ah Ng

the "EH.EH.EH" Tribesman

Crikey! An animal out of its enclosure. The WA Express

The Rama Family
Pimp my Ride Zoo edition
A hit and run incident
Hall of shame

A dead tourist

And so the day ended;

With a debrief

And some soul searchin'
Some found true loveWhile others realised that they are just meant to pose.

Oh and here's a tribute to REKHA for the free tix. Thanks alot :D

Meri Yaad Rakhna

"Dil Keh Raha Hain Dil Se Vada Karo Dil Se

Chaahe Tum Jahaan Bhi Jaana Jaanam

Meri Yaad Rakhna, O Meri Yaad Rakhna"...

By Adnan Sami

Simply words-cant-describe

My heart is saying to ours to make a promise
No matter where you may go
Remember me always
Hmm the seasons might change but dear please remain the same
Walk with me on the path of love
My beloved remember me always
Return quickly when you have gone away from me
Don’t keep my heart waiting by making excuses
In a full moon night in my sleep in my dreams
Beloved remember me

- translation

and just when i was drowning in the beauty of the song

as every note pulled strings in my heart

and i lost myself in the magic of love;

i saw her picture

TEH. sorry no emo-ing allowed

:)

just when i was about to be crushed

the boulder on my shoulder was lifted
and the weight of these feelings
gone :) emo who?

water

Water

A performance at the Victoria Theatre
By the Temple of Fine arts feat. The chinese orchestra
Me. Sai . Shiva . Kumaran
Classically enriching :)

present

there comes a point in my life
when the contorted mixture of feelings;
untold sorrow.betrayal.anger.fear.insecurities.
become a fixed constant. a straight line
and i learn to silence the feeling,
but dont be fooled. for its there. only invisible to the naked eye.
but wait.
i'm actually smiling :)
cos i'm slowly mastering the art
of harnessing the energy that drives this feeling
and use it for the better
fool this ain't emo;
cos i bet u wouldnt last more than a few steps
in my shoes.
you run and hide from the past.
but i was raised in such as to never forget the one i loved.
and my heart still feels the same way.
one day the truth will blow up.
and then you'll realise. only maybe when im gone.

but when the past is pain
and the future is dark
dont put your leg, each on one end
and pee on the present.
Live in the present, and make every sec count.
Do your shit and fear not.
For your promised rainbow will come soon :)
(and that my dear is the logic of the Just Past, Far Present & Near Future)

Pirates

Dinner and Late night movie with my family.

Been ages since i went out with them.

My sisters are Crazy i tell you.

moulmein

bhajans at moulmein
then a sleepover at sai's hse
i love his moms cooking man. simple and satisfying
and then the movie mozhi
one of the best movies ever made i personally feel.
oh and here's a pic of a SICK bell thingy made by some uncle in the bhajan.
crazay

Chill Out in Paris

Chill Out in Paris

Nitin Sawhney- Beyond Skin

Fusion

June 10

shiva's hse prayers
jamming
bhajan practice that got pushed later -.-
SCC vs NYP
1 - 0
horrid. my worst match.
and i got carded.
for going to my team mates aid.
"Not your match Thiru"
yeap i noe.
so wad's wrong with me eh?

let it go thiru, let it go.

Happy birthday MA :)

NGEE ANN Street Soccer
5-A side Tournament
SILVER
Miss3Turners
When it comes to down to penalties.
AWESOME.
Cos thats one thing i noe i rawk at :D
save!
(and all these wouldnt have been possible if you were still in my life)

morning convo

conversation with my dad in the morning;
the law of nature
angels around us
the cycle of samsara
nirvana
so basically fundamentally summarising:
do the right, the law of dharma

i forecasted it long ago
and now that its confirmed
its time i start preparing myself
but when reality hits me i noe,
that its gona hurt oh so bad.

come back vayuputra pls

naalai ulagam

i shouldnt have listened to those songs

but i couldnt resist, the beauty of tamil love songs

its been so long since i have lost myself in thoughts and memories

i still love her.

i dont noe if its wrong or right to.

but my heart still has a place reserved

but i know indefinetly, that its not meant to be;

but then why?

such is the plight of one sided love :)

naalai ulagam illai yendral, azhage yenna seivai?

bad ass coffee

I had a pinch of EGO added

to my cup of coffee this morning

something told me yest night that its gona be neccesary

not used to it but i think its for the best

storm in a teacup i tell you

CMA

BANG BANG BANG
and i'm left with CMA
woot.
Logan's leaving for NS tomoro.
Fear.
Erm not for him. But for those at tekong.
This guy's gona reak hell there man.
Better inform the ghosts over there too.
LOADS of plans for after exams
especially for the band.
had lunch with them today.
and i must say time flew.
and the most freq used word : "PODU"
lol

You enter and close the door behind you
Now show me the world as seen from the stars.
If only the lights would dim a little,
I'm wary of eyes upon my scars.
So what am i to you? Now? and in the Future?
i give all only cos i noe. in the coming future u'll be gone
and these memories im sure wont mean anything to you
just like how they never did the time b4
maybe cos i give too much.
but then again its just me.
but then again.

live. and let die

oh so pist
oh you're so fake
bla bla bla bla bla all the shit you talk about me
hate me.
what she said was right. being nice aint gona work
cos people just take advantage.
live. and let die.

just rem, the one common factor...

zzzzz

its been me and books
oh ya and the sunday div3 hockey match
SCC vs Jansenites
4 -3
an awesome come back.
FMGT,BLAW,HRM,CMA
-.- zzzzz
im so glad atleast i have NG's booklet

coming back

its been long since i posted.
i think theres so much going around i lost control
nth big this week. just the usual trainings and studying for common tests.
urgh

but emotionally, there seems to be a baggage.
im in a state i hate to be in. one where i feel vulnerable
but its a phase and i noe it'll pass.
and i've made changes in my life to deal with it.
and now i shall attempt to release this negativity in me by writing it out

anger.
stop being so fake cos i can see thru you
all the sweet talk means no shit to me
cos u're not sincere and i noe that :)
i only moved away cos u were doing something wrong
and i foresaw everything.
pls dont try to put the shit on me now.
cos it wont take me long to lash back :)
stop pushing me, dont antagonise me
ur sarcastic comments dont make u smart
slowly but surely
i'll see you eye to eye :)
i'm honoured by the amount of attention you girls are giving me
although i dont really need ur bad mouthing
pls find some other topic to talk abt :)
stop thinking abt yourself cos thats not what the worlds only about
everyone has feelings and needs too
but u dont seem to understand.
wake up bro. :)
we were given the opportunity and potential
to be different from the rest
lets not screw it up guys :)