i'm having abit of a tussle with myself
trying to revert back to my sadhana (discipline) plan
its tough. even tougher with a messy room that haunts you.
Cos thats my first daunting task.
To clean my room. seems so impossible.
haha

Personality conflicts within myself.
Its like doing a master mixing on a equaliser.
u gota balance the treble bass echo gain bla bla..
Problem is im losing grip of the situation.
FINE so im feeling abit on the lazy side.
Gota kick myself back into action.
errr but right now. ill just go laze la
buahahha :x

some rest. love. assurance.
oh ya and a epiphany.
that'll do :)

Friday jammings are the bomb.
So the band's going through much of a makeover.
The genres. The instruments.
We have chosen to rename our band inlight of our exposures to higher order music.
Akashic records?Aksharas?fukc?(kumaran suggested that)
The addition of drum box with the combination dholak. aha oho
And jia jies jang jazz chords that at first distort the song
but later when refined adds beauty.
kya bath
And here's a little sneak peak into our jamming sessions.
Dont worry, you're not gona find anything constructive there
Its just one of our randoms :)
Click on TEST-undefined

2 aussies and a SGian

Sooooo tired.

Sooooo sleepy.

Soooo messed up lifestyle.

but who's complaining :D

Everything has been on impulse.

Cos basically im trying to catch up on some rest

But it seems impossible with my friends around.haha

Ragu came down to my house and picked me up on his bike

Went for a cheap thrill ride which had no purpose.

He ah. thinks he's some hell rider.

Cool shades biker gloves all.

Then we met shiva and rania at bukit batok for dinnner

And as usual we made an impulsive decision.

To stay over at shiva's house.

I had to drink coffee just to stay wake.

The late night acoustics

The distorting of my photo

The bluff

The sharania fearing me and ***ing
buahahaha

Oh ya and did i mention. loads of photos taken. woot.

credits to sharania for taking and editing the top photo :)

YES. i love u asses.

YEssaaahhhhh

its over. finally some fresh air :D

but my whole body's so screwed thanks to the damn exams

less than 6 hrs sleep in 3 days

and eating at odd timings.

so basically im not in the best of moods.

First course after exams,

head straight to cine to chillax

XBOX. CS. basically letting of the steam

BRICE.LYNN.ZHIWEI.DEAN

and i seriously think lynn isn't straight man.

but she's a good counsellor. lol

And these pics are from lynn by lynn, which is why you will see that she appears most

haha.

ahh yes. my tagbox.

a place where the freedom of expression noes no limits

first and foremost i would like to give credits to my dear ah ng for helping me create it =)

And since i've been having difficulty accessing it i'de like to thank sharania for helping me keep a lookout :)

lately, i've recieved much compliments from people i don't know

and i am very much grateful to you.

I decided to have this tagbox knowing the disadvantages it poses, but yet i went with it.

All because i'm very open to comments.

This falls into advantage of those trash talking uncouth beings out there who try to settle scores with me through the means of a tagbox.

Not to bark back at the barking dog.

That is the standards expected.

But i'm gona take this opportunity to address all those who take cover behind their moms skirts and throw paper aeroplanes at me, in hopes of crushing me.

When you throw a boomerang you have to realise that it comes back at you and to be able to handle it is an acquired skill.

Something you couldnt learn living behind that skirt all these years. I hope you comprehend the analogy.

Cos simply,

Reversing my name cannot reverse who i am my friend.

Now i publicly make an invitation to any soul out there who desire and crave a piece of me.

If you want me, come and get me.

I've chosen not to reply these comments, but neither will i delete them. And i'm not going to indulge in Drerogratory or Abusive terms to hit back. But in the terms of the pantomime, here's a Thank you for your effort =)

half way through hell
2 papers done with 2 to go.
my not-so-productive-nor-happening lifestyle to fit the exams is getting to me
sleeping at 12 and waking up at 4.30 to study just screws up the whole system
and when this is all over
im gona get this vendetta of mine settled.
=)

EXAMINATIONS
something that translates to the devil himself
with the power to just suck the life out of a human being
leaving him to feel so empty and lifeless.

Its not the exam itself, its the time period
Just screws up your whole system.
Either i study. Or i stone
I cant bring myself to do anything other than that
Oh ya and theres the prospective thinking
All the "IM SO GONA DO THAT AFTER MY EXAMS" thinking
starts up a fire in me ya noe. a silent fire though.
and its in this very volatile period of life
that GOD will want to test you, poke at you.

FINE. poke at me la;
poke at my family tree
poke at my frens
poke at my retrospective thoughts
poke at my left ear
poke at my declining physique
poke at my desires
poke at my fear of the exodus
poke at my faith in YOU
poke at my resilience against these cheap whores that throw themselves at you
poke at the crumbling walls around me
bleh

Company Law, Business Law:
Incorporation - Treating the firm as a seperate legal entity
Theres a lot to learn from this you know,
not on a superficial note but deeper.
In life, you have to learn to treat your body as a seperate entity from the soul.
In this way you stay unphased by the things that happen around you or to you.
Never to let Plague or Pride affect you.
And that's a true leaders important quality.
Take it from the Hero of 300. So cool. So unphased.
Be attached to your body and you're bound to suffer.

This is the reason why i have actually ceased to EMO
Although sometimes spirits do get dampened.
But as fast as they come, they go.
and nows its all about being
AWESOME 24/7 365

sun

EHV at bhavans international school

Teaching the kids to sing bhajans today

p1-p2 ( sharania begged me to come to her class and teach)

p3-p4 ( monkeys i tell you)

p5-p6

Surprisingly i felt shack after it all ended. But very satisfying :)

I totally despise having this ear infection
Keeps coming on and off.grrrr
and everything around me seems to come to a standstill
I cant get myself to do anything
and now my bodys overheated
but i still have my faith in the REDOXON vitamins i bought
Exams around the bend.
The setting are perfect for me to break down.
But like i promised myself
Never to let Plague or Pride affect me
i'm still going at it.
=)

sometimes you get so lost

in the concerns about the ones you love

that you forget about the ones that love you

and i thank GOD for realising this

stone
you're one of a kind
unreciprocated love would flicker out
but yours never did
for how much you cared
i owe you more than any

dear lazy bum

im s o r r y :(

just rem

rain or shine

im still gona be here next to you

i promise :)

Like passing clouds

Things come and go

So learn to appreciate and enjoy

what you have till it lasts

and smile for the promised rainbow is there waiting for you

embrace it and be happy :)

Always be cheerful and content

Parthi Boy

After being constantly NAGGED by that SHARANIA ass i've decided to update my blog.
I've not been lazy, just busy :P
I actually have too much to say.
About my trip to bangalore, india
That shall be a seperate post on its own, when i have the time that is.
But my my my my my,
the changes have been just glaringly obvious
and im loving it.
A new me, so to say
and there to stay.
So they hencforth know me by the name PARTHI BOY
muahaha:P

So basically for those who have been asking,
My name's thirukkumaaran
im 19
im in NGEE ANN POLY doing Business studies
YES music gives me orgasms ( longer than the ones pigs have)
YES i have a spiritual inclination
I aspire and perspire to do LAW
YES i love hockey and soccer
NO im not attached and NO im not interested anyone. sheesh
and YES YES i love my white army
including that sharania-ass ,uma(mia) and shameni(workaholic)
And most importantly, a strict believer in
Sanatana Dharma

God You think, God You Are

Dust You think, Dust You Are

AS You Think, So You Are

Think GOD be GOD

ok ok b4 i begin, if anyone viewed a post b4 this one that sounded entirely gay
IT WAS SHARANIA D/O NAVALAN's work!!
grrrrr
you wait you dawg. i'll get you.

IC 958
Indian Airlines
Destination: Bangalore
Travel Purpose: Trip to Puttaparthi
Duration: 21st to 31st July 2007

Yeap i'll be gone,
skipping school
missing my hockey finals.
Dont miss me dear,
cos just maybe you'll realise
when i'm gone :)

ok so the whole weeks just been SUPER DUPER RUSH
guess why..

I CUT MY HAIR SUPER SHORT. AND I'M CLEAN SHAVEN
IDEAL SAI YOUTH mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

SHF Hockey League Div 3 Semi Finals

SCC vs Tornados Anza

4 -1

Lesson learnt: More important than your biceps, triceps etc, are your ear muscles.

One ear in. One ear out

And then off to jurong point to meet the Kumaran, Sai, Shiva,Logan Rekha, Jivi, Sharania

From there we dropped jivi from the squad. She had to go somwhere important *AHEM*

Off to shiva's house where we sat by the pool and talked.talked talked.

One of the times i can really take my mind off.

Rekha kumaran and sharania left around 11

Me Logan Sai stayed on to overnight at shiva's

and my GOD. Logan snores like a pig i tell you.

i love these people tho :)

but what am i to do when the exodus takes place?

Heaven on Earth

ECD over, so what's next?

of course HEALTH and LIFESTYLE MANAGEMENT

-.-

Its a pass or fail module, hence the minimal effort put in by the group

So we came up with this Heaven on Earth concept

We offered:

Herbal Tea

Free Massage

Free HUGS ( My personal fav :D)

Of course There was the very important SOUND THERAPY

And the fact i was FREE for a day was just too irresistable ;)

ECD

consequences of falling sick:

no gymming

no hockey

no tabla

no singing

missed classes

missed TEST

been a boring week. but i just got my ECD Bazaar pictures from brice.

ECD Bazaar

the "Chindian" stall

selling indian finger food and SUPPOSE to be chinese stickers

oh ya and of course HENNA thanks to my darling sharania ( i owe u)

The owners: yong lian, brice , spencer, thiru

It started out very rocky, but in the end we managed to break even and even earn some profit ($2.50 each). hahaha but it was actually thanks to the henna. YES WE ADMIT RANIA. :P

the stall
me. yong lian. emo panda
indian.chinese.and a cross breed brice's photostyles

sharania's art works

test me, not kill me.
a late morning dream, of something that felt so real
so real it reduced me to tears
so real it shattered what's left of me
when my eyes opened to reality.
and the truths i've burried deep down in me
managed to claw right back up
they've got a tight hold on my neck and heart
and once in awhile they give me a real good squeeze
killing me slowly but surely
either i let them kill me, or i liberate these truths of mine
only to destroy what we have now

point of breakdown

point of breakdown

PHYSICALLY, that is

cos i've been fighting it off the whole week

but yesterday my systems crashed

and thus resulting in the infamous

FLU FEVER SORETHROAT COUGH BODYACHE

but like that's gona stop me. tsk.

I've learnt 3 important lessons

Never push your own limits for someone else

Because they will presume thats your comfort zone

It all started with a punkass trying to scold me on the feild

And rather than the usual " ok ok np"

it came out as "@#$% just play ur game man"

So there. Some people really dont deserve ur kindness

SO JUST GIVE IT TO THEM i say.

The bus driver who asked to see my ez link card

in such a rude fashion

1) i was listening to bhajans 2) i was sick

i should have put him in his place,

but the 2 reasons stopped me.

which comes down to the next point

practicality over superficialness

this to all preachers who dont practice

sssssshhhhh k :)

I've decided to look at life in a very practical way.

A bit of rebel is good. To fight for what you believe in

and not for what others tell you to.

And the last,

controling the EYES and TONGUE

looking down while i walk,

and choosing not to let words out

has helped me SO much.

And so i realised,

all this kept within me sparked a controlled rage inside

but i spit it all out now, and now i burn like the sun

but i have to be careful, i nearly burnt the innocent

for you, 1 2 3 4 5 just so much

i can't anymore

prove to me

SCC vs CSC
6 - 0

And so we're through to the semi finals
Which is next saturday.
Prob is there's src 4 -a- side on the same day.
Choice?

And then off to EHV at the temple.
The team wore GREEN cos its EARTH DAY
We had a fruitful meeting,
one without the usual distractions.
But alot of complications have arised.
While the core 3 stick together,
the others are faltering.

But have faith,
cos if the end journey on every one's mind
is synchronised as one
Then sooner or later,
things will fall into place :)